The choice is yours...

  To have a good day or a bad day? That is the question. I know that life can throw some pretty mean curve balls. But, I think the attitude we have when those balls are thrown is completely our choice. I know I don't always make the right choice. In fact most the time I make the wrong one. Today I am choosing to have a good attitude amongst the craziness that is my life. What choice will you make?

  In other news...I hate my shin. I also hate being injured. *trying to be positive* Okay, let me rephrase. My shin hurts and I really don't enjoy being injured. Especially when its for a dumb reason. But, I also really don't like attention. It seems that whenever someone gets injured they get a lot of attention. Some people enjoy this. I don't! I don't mind that people are making fun of me for what happened. Its a pretty good story. But other than that I'm not down with the attention being on me. I'm thankful I was able to play in our softball game last night. And I am thankful we finally won a game!! It was a good fun game.

  And in some other news...My mom flies in on Tuesday! Cant wait. We will be spending some time in Phoenix and then coming back up to Show low. I love it when family visits.


 Today I read Proverbs 3. So good right? Do not lean on your own understanding...Ugh. I do that all the time. There are so many things in life that I try to understand and I just cant. But maybe I'm not supposed to. Ya know? I'm thankful that God understands and I'm so glad he is sovereign and loves us so much. AND he is so stinkin patient. I would have given up on me by now. Thanks God!

Have a great day friends!

Living in shadows

  "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people wont feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." -Marianne Williamson

  This is probably one of my all time favorite quotes. I have to admit that I've never really believed any of it. My deepest fear was that I am inadequate. That I'm not good enough. That I have nothing to offer the world. I always felt so inferior to other people. So, I hid behind a fake smile. I wasn't my real self. I thought that if I was my real self people wouldn't like me. I think that a lot of us can probably relate to being fake at one point or another. I never really asked the question posed in this quote. Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Instead, I just simply said I'm not brilliant, gorgeous, talented, or fabulous. Like Marianne says, "playing small does not serve the world." She is right. But I think more than that, playing small doesn't really serve God. I am HIS child. How do I make manifest his glory if I'm shrinking back? I AM His child. He is apart of me. He created me to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous! And He created me to shine His glory in this world.
  Lately, I've found myself being real with people. I'm completely goofy, clumsy, weird, awkward, sometimes cranky, and crazy! But I'm God's. What I've learned through being myself is that I AM good enough. People do still like me. But I have also learned that sometimes people are insecure around me. And sometimes people DONT like me.That bothers me. But God made me who I am and I'm not going to shrink back. I love to have fun and be goofy and enjoy life. I try so hard to stay positive and surround myself with positive people. I also try very hard to love people. All people. That's a hard quest! But I think that's what God wants.
  So that's where I'm at. I'm just me. I'm trying to figure out my role in this world. And I just want to live for Christ. I want to be myself. No more hiding and shrinking back. I think its time to shine for the Lord!
  Have a great day my friends!!

Another try.

 So, here I am yet again. Another feeble attempt at blogging. Thanks to my amazing friend JE who encouraged me to get back into it. I don't have a lot of spare time. Well, actually, I really have none. Lets see where this new adventure of another shot at blogging takes me!
 I know you are wondering what I've been up to lately. I think the better question is what have I NOT been up to? Our life is complete insanity right now. Most days I don't know if I will have time to breathe. We are busy busy busy! And we LOVE it! If you didn't hear about Paul's new job yet, let me tell you about it. He is officially in full time ministry! He leads worship at our church and he now also leads the youth group. I guess I never really understood how truly busy families in full time ministry are. My gosh. When it seems like we finally have time to sit down and rest for a quick sec something ALWAYS comes up. Although it seems like this would be a rough life, its not. We love it. Its a fun adventure everyday. I'm sure I will write about it often.
 I think that's all I've got for now. I will try to blog on a regular basis! Goodnight!